One day, Keneth Parcell will rule over all of us.
(Source: ForGIFs.com)
I’m not going to lie, but I’m a little depressed. After graduation, I had visioned myself to take a summer break, travel, take my mind off of school, find a job before December, and secure myself with a “stable” job. But obviously that’s not how things turned out. I kept working because all I could see was myself making money. I saw myself finding security in dollars. I took a detour with my relationship with God and depended on myself. I applied to dozens of jobs, no call back.. Life became so routine; wake up, go to work, eat, sleep. On my days off; lie in bed. Literally, there was no drive in me.
Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I kept my eyes on God after graduation. Today, I read Proverbs. This was the first time I opened the Word in a year. After reading articles about the church, life, and interpretations of what passages mean, it felt so good to actually read the Source itself. It has power to speak in ways that articles can’t do. It’s God-breathed. I lost sight of its realness. After reading just one chapter, I felt God speaking to me. I felt the Holy Spirit fill a part of my heart. It was telling me to let go of me and let God drive. It’s not easy to do it, but if life isn’t satisfying now, I figure something needs to change and little by little, I am allowing HIM to guide me. It’s not easy to let go, but it is fulfilling to let God take my burden. He’s going to build His Kingdom with or without me. I need to trust His direction for my life. Right now it’s not a complete 180 degrees, but more like a 10 degree at a time type of thing, but I know by acknowledging my fault, is a great start, and asking God to forgive me for losing sight of Him, is a great step to take.
